Lost my daughter to suicide

[marcyleecorgan]

*positive energy and pixie dust*

 

[mom2rtk]

Hugs to you @mommasita.

You say you aren't strong. You are 100% strong. You are getting up every day and putting one foot in front of the other. Please feel all the love and support I'm sending your way.

 

[Disneyfan754321]

This weekend is 4 years. FOUR YEARS, it’s unbelievable, inconceivable that I have survived. I keep picturing my Bri at 4. Then I think it’s 4 years closer to to us joining,

I have not thanked every post, but I have read and appreciate each and every. Please know I am not strong at all. I am the weakest limb on a tree, I am treading.

I start a new job on Monday, I am terrified, like what was I thinking. . However my old boss says I can call her Tuesday in case it doesn’t click, and go right back.

❤Lots of Love ❤ you are stronger than you think, I am mom of a kid that had a rare cancer. People always said I dont know how you do it. It really came down to one step at a time and day by day.
Have a great day at your new job.

 

[PollyannaMom]

Just wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you today.

 

[weswife]

This weekend is 4 years. FOUR YEARS, it’s unbelievable, inconceivable that I have survived. I keep picturing my Bri at 4. Then I think it’s 4 years closer to to us joining,

I have not thanked every post, but I have read and appreciate each and every. Please know I am not strong at all. I am the weakest limb on a tree, I am treading.

I start a new job on Monday, I am terrified, like what was I thinking. . However my old boss says I can call her Tuesday in case it doesn’t click, and go right back.

Thinking of you ... sending big hugs your way

 

[Silver saucer]

Mommasita Im sending hugs and prayers your way. You are strong even if it doesn't feel like it. The compassion you show others in need on this board has made a difference to me and Im sure to many others.
You are incredibly brave!

 

[LuvOrlando]

Wishing you continued strength and increasing peace in your days.

 

[TLSnell1981]

No words...only a great big hug.

 

[quandrea]

Thinking of you today @mommasita.

 

[Silver saucer]

I hope your first week of work at your new job went well. Learning the million and one little and big things in a new job can be completely overwhelming. Everything takes time to learn. You go girl!!!!

 

[mommasita]

I hope your first week of work at your new job went well. Learning the million and one little and big things in a new job can be completely overwhelming. Everything takes time to learn. You go girl!!!!

Thank you. It was very hard this week. I spoke to my old boss Tuesday, I thanked her and told her I wouldn’t be back. Thursday I’m nearly in tears, I sent her an email to see if I could change my mind . I haven’t heard back. She must think I’m certifiable. New jobs are hard, I guess time will tell.
I am very overwhelmed, but it’s Our Thanksgiving here, so a long weekend to relax and unwind,

 

[cm8]

Thank you. It was very hard this week. I spoke to my old boss Tuesday, I thanked her and told her I wouldn’t be back. Thursday I’m nearly in tears, I sent her an email to see if I could change my mind . I haven’t heard back. She must think I’m certifiable. New jobs are hard, I guess time will tell.
I am very overwhelmed, but it’s Our Thanksgiving here, so a long weekend to relax and unwind,

Here’s a big . Whatever you decide, may it bring you whatever you’re looking for. Please get some rest and enjoy your Thanksgiving!

 

[mommasita]

Tomorrow. Tomorrow is my daughter’s 23rd Birthday. I wanted to close this thread, but I can’t, I just can not do it. I feel like that is just another way of making it like she never existed, she is over. She never will be. I wonder so much how much she would have changed in 5 years.

Although I appreciate the well wishes, please know this isn’t the meaning for this thread. It is my therapy, a way to speak my words, my thoughts, my heart.

I will be working, I’ve never worked a Birthday of hers since I’ve lost her, I pray for the strength to be able to make the day. My best friend called, suggested i do what I can, if I can’t, I can’t, that is all. I don’t do well with pity, so I don’t want to tell my boss why, if I can’t, I’ll just say I am not well, which wont be a lie.

Well then, thanks for letting me ramble.

 

[macraven]

Sending you a big hug.

 

[susans]

mommasita,
My heart is with you. My son decided not to live anymore also. People don’t understand that you are still grieving—bless you and please hang in there.

 

[Dan Murphy]

Tomorrow. Tomorrow is my daughter’s 23rd Birthday. I wanted to close this thread, but I can’t, I just can not do it. I feel like that is just another way of making it like she never existed, she is over. She never will be. I wonder so much how much she would have changed in 5 years.

Although I appreciate the well wishes, please know this isn’t the meaning for this thread. It is my therapy, a way to speak my words, my thoughts, my heart.

I will be working, I’ve never worked a Birthday of hers since I’ve lost her, I pray for the strength to be able to make the day. My best friend called, suggested i do what I can, if I can’t, I can’t, that is all. I don’t do well with pity, so I don’t want to tell my boss why, if I can’t, I’ll just say I am not well, which wont be a lie.

Well then, thanks for letting me ramble.

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No closing this thread, that's right, mommasita. With you in spirit.

 

[mommasita]

mommasita,
My heart is with you. My son decided not to live anymore also. People don’t understand that you are still grieving—bless you and please hang in there.

@susans , sending you love

 

[Dan Murphy]

My son decided not to live anymore also. People don’t understand that you are still grieving—bless you and please hang in there.

's susans

 

[TLSnell1981]

Sending prayers for peace and strength.

 

[Pea-n-Me]

Keeping you close in thought and prayer.