Thanks Jamie, Amy, Tracy, everyone. Its been tough, but your kind words and thoughts are very much appreciated. Glad the moderators on this part of the board aren't as tough as the Trip Reports monitors, since I haven't posted much WISH stuff lately, but its nice to have a place to come and put my thoughts down, and have friends that care. Talked to dad's wife again last night, he's still hangin' on, not really verbal anymore, tough old cuss.
Had a nice talk with my half-sister last night, lives in the Tacoma WA area. Dad had 3 daughters from his 1st marriage, and this one is the one i'm closest too. I actually lived with her and her husband and 7 kids during my high school years, I was having trouble with my stepmom, his 3rd wife. The sister and I are pretty close, she's definitely one of my surrogate moms. She and her sisters have had some serious issues with dad over the years, but she said that they have talked recently and are starting to forgive him. She feels bad that they weren't able to talk to him earlier about it, but they just weren't ready.
I have been reducing the soda lately, but not gone completely. Mostly caffeine free coke or pepsi. Lots of water. Hadn't lifted with DS13 for a while, but finally did it again last night. He's so funny, actually pretty strong on the bench for his age, good size triceps, but really struggles with curls, skinny little biceps. I keep telling him to concentrate on breathing thru his eyelids, but that just cracks him up (Bull Durham reference). I think my joints are starting to feel a little better, with the reduced soda. I did 2 sets of bench, 15 and 18 reps of 133 lbs., and 1 set (doh!) of curls, 15 reps of 57 lbs. (too lazy to add more weight, and gave up a little early, should have done another set). I've been consciously not trying to do too much weight, more reps, when i do too heavy my joints really hurt. Had a cold lately, scale's not nice. Gotta get out and move!!
Thanks again for your support, you guys rock!!
(btw, i'm addicted to american idol, still can't believe Mandisa went so early, glad Bucky finally went, he was the last one I couldn't stand, sad to see Kellie go, but somebody had to. Chris must win, dude rocks!, Bocelli was incredible!)