frogmommy
Supercalifragilistic
- Joined
- Sep 19, 2005
It occurs to me that when I started this journal I didn't introduce myself very well. So, since my first post here was essentially a place holder (I had issues with trying to post a thread), I'm editing it to include the background info that I left out.
So here goes...
I'm 36 and weigh 195 (well, I was 195 last week when I started the journal. Now I'm 194.). I was thin 'till about my last year of college. That's when all the beer and pizza caught up with me. I pretty much closed my eyes weighing 125 and woke up two years later weighing 165. I would look in the mirror and not know who the heck the person looking back at me was. I got married, got a job, and went about life. At times I worked on my diet and tried to exercise. Over the years I continued to steadily gain weight until I arrived at the point I am at now. 195 seems to be a magic number for me. I can diet, workout, pig out, get pregnant and give birth, but I always seem to land right at 195. DH is kind of supportive. He wants me to be healthy, but he's not sure he wants me to lose weight. My mother, on the other hand, wants me to lose weight, but is not very supportive!! Ah family.
I have two beautiful children, a son who is 4, and a daughter who is 16 months. I currently stay home with them, but we are broke. I will most likely have to go back to work next fall (I teach). I hate the idea of going back, especially for my DD's sake. DS will be old enough for kindergarten, and really he will do well in that setting.
DH is a band director. He works really long hours, especially this time of year. He's also dealing with some issues of his own. This is my journal, of course, but everything that effects him also in some way effects me, so I thought it was important to note.
My mother is a perfectionist, and has had her own weight issues - though on the other end of the spectrum from me. I won't say she's an anorexic, but she has some tendencies. She drives me nuts.
Hmm, what else? I have serious control issues. The odd thing is, the more control and structure I seem to have, the less self-control I have with eating. The other thing about me is that I am the classic caregiver type, which means I tend to put the needs of my immediate family before my own.
Ok, that's me in a nutshell.
Heather
So here goes...
I'm 36 and weigh 195 (well, I was 195 last week when I started the journal. Now I'm 194.). I was thin 'till about my last year of college. That's when all the beer and pizza caught up with me. I pretty much closed my eyes weighing 125 and woke up two years later weighing 165. I would look in the mirror and not know who the heck the person looking back at me was. I got married, got a job, and went about life. At times I worked on my diet and tried to exercise. Over the years I continued to steadily gain weight until I arrived at the point I am at now. 195 seems to be a magic number for me. I can diet, workout, pig out, get pregnant and give birth, but I always seem to land right at 195. DH is kind of supportive. He wants me to be healthy, but he's not sure he wants me to lose weight. My mother, on the other hand, wants me to lose weight, but is not very supportive!! Ah family.
I have two beautiful children, a son who is 4, and a daughter who is 16 months. I currently stay home with them, but we are broke. I will most likely have to go back to work next fall (I teach). I hate the idea of going back, especially for my DD's sake. DS will be old enough for kindergarten, and really he will do well in that setting.
DH is a band director. He works really long hours, especially this time of year. He's also dealing with some issues of his own. This is my journal, of course, but everything that effects him also in some way effects me, so I thought it was important to note.
My mother is a perfectionist, and has had her own weight issues - though on the other end of the spectrum from me. I won't say she's an anorexic, but she has some tendencies. She drives me nuts.
Hmm, what else? I have serious control issues. The odd thing is, the more control and structure I seem to have, the less self-control I have with eating. The other thing about me is that I am the classic caregiver type, which means I tend to put the needs of my immediate family before my own.
Ok, that's me in a nutshell.
Heather