pearlieq
<font color=green>They can sit & spin<br><font col
- Joined
- Aug 3, 2004
Surfacing again...
It was a quiet couple of weeks after mom came home from the hospital. I think she stayed home another week or two after she got out, and then went back to work one week. The break from chemo really seemed to do her a lot of good. Toward the end she was looking almost normal.
Unfortunately, last Friday she had to start up the chemo again. This time it's a new drug called carboplatin (sp?). So far it's made her really, really tired, (which was expected since she already had super low blood counts the day they gave it to her) but she hasn't sprouted horns or anything, which is always a relief because you just never know with this stuff...
She's going to have a transfusion tomorrow, which will hopefully make her feel a little better. That's a loooooong appointment, but if it works it's totally worth it. One day at a time, I guess.
She officially put in her paperwork to retire at the end of Jan next year. It's a relief on many fronts, so now we're just praying she can make it until then. She wasn't able to work this week, but I'm hoping the transfusion and a lot of rest will make it work for next week.
DH is enjoying his new job, which I'm grateful for. It's a little maddening for me because he has lots of expenses, but has to get reimbursed for them instead of having an expense accout. I understand the the guys wanted to use their own cards so they could get miles, etc. but it just drives me bonkers to try to keep track of it all. Hopefully we'll work out a system here.
For my part, I seem to be working off of the same to do list:
--work
--take care of mom
--chores
--try to figure out what to do with my life
In the downtimes lately I've been doing a lot of thinking about that. When I'm not working or taking care of mom, I have seemingly endless downtime, and I need to figure out what to do with myself other than hanging around online and watching TV. That's not a life.
I just don't know what to do. Sad as it sounds, I really don't have any dreams. Wow--it's really depressing when you say it like that. But I just don't really have any goals. I don't have a deep, secret desire to climb mountains, start a business, or learn to paint or something like that. So what? What do I do with myself? I can't just sit around and watch VH1 specials for the next 60 years, you know?
So, that's pretty much it. Mom's continuing saga, DH's job, and my existential crises.
I did take a leap of faith (or denial, maybe?) today and I booked a room at SSR for me, DH, mom, and my brother to go to WDW next April. I know the odds aren't really in our favor that it will work out and mom will be well enough to travel, but it still felt good to do it. I really, really wish for this to work out.
I hope all is well with everyone else. I think of you all so frequently, even when I'm MIA.
It was a quiet couple of weeks after mom came home from the hospital. I think she stayed home another week or two after she got out, and then went back to work one week. The break from chemo really seemed to do her a lot of good. Toward the end she was looking almost normal.
Unfortunately, last Friday she had to start up the chemo again. This time it's a new drug called carboplatin (sp?). So far it's made her really, really tired, (which was expected since she already had super low blood counts the day they gave it to her) but she hasn't sprouted horns or anything, which is always a relief because you just never know with this stuff...
She's going to have a transfusion tomorrow, which will hopefully make her feel a little better. That's a loooooong appointment, but if it works it's totally worth it. One day at a time, I guess.
She officially put in her paperwork to retire at the end of Jan next year. It's a relief on many fronts, so now we're just praying she can make it until then. She wasn't able to work this week, but I'm hoping the transfusion and a lot of rest will make it work for next week.
DH is enjoying his new job, which I'm grateful for. It's a little maddening for me because he has lots of expenses, but has to get reimbursed for them instead of having an expense accout. I understand the the guys wanted to use their own cards so they could get miles, etc. but it just drives me bonkers to try to keep track of it all. Hopefully we'll work out a system here.
For my part, I seem to be working off of the same to do list:
--work
--take care of mom
--chores
--try to figure out what to do with my life
In the downtimes lately I've been doing a lot of thinking about that. When I'm not working or taking care of mom, I have seemingly endless downtime, and I need to figure out what to do with myself other than hanging around online and watching TV. That's not a life.
I just don't know what to do. Sad as it sounds, I really don't have any dreams. Wow--it's really depressing when you say it like that. But I just don't really have any goals. I don't have a deep, secret desire to climb mountains, start a business, or learn to paint or something like that. So what? What do I do with myself? I can't just sit around and watch VH1 specials for the next 60 years, you know?
So, that's pretty much it. Mom's continuing saga, DH's job, and my existential crises.
I did take a leap of faith (or denial, maybe?) today and I booked a room at SSR for me, DH, mom, and my brother to go to WDW next April. I know the odds aren't really in our favor that it will work out and mom will be well enough to travel, but it still felt good to do it. I really, really wish for this to work out.
I hope all is well with everyone else. I think of you all so frequently, even when I'm MIA.