I'm not sure if this was really scary at the time, but the thoughts that went through my head afterward still scare me to no end.
When I went to Disney this past June, I felt sick the whole time we were there. I didn't know why at the time, but I was really nauseous and out of it the whole time we were there. The day we got back (it was a Saturday), we went to Wal-Mart and I got a soda. I couldn't get the top off tho...so I had to get my dad to open it for me. I didn't think much of it tho.
That night I was REALLY tired so I ended up going to bed around 9:30ish, when I usually don't go to bed until past midnight most of the time during the Summer.
Two days later, I woke up in the hospital. I don't remember Sunday at all. It's really weird. It's like....one minute I was laying in my dark room...and the next I was in a hospital bed. IV in my arm and mother leaning over the side of my bed. According to my family, Sunday I had woken up and was extremely clumsy. I couldn't walk straight, wasn't acting like myself and I could hardly keep my eyes open throughout the day. They also said that I wasn't acting like me at all...like I was cursing like nuts and I VERY rarely cuss when I'm in my right mind. So eventually they had to literally force me to go to the hospital and ignore the colorful language I was using with them. The doctors did a cat scan on me and I went in for emergency surgery just a few hours later.
Turns out- my shunt had gotten blocked (the signs of a blocked shunt are muscle weakness, change in personality, tiredness, nausea and headaches. I had everything but the headaches) . I was born with a birth defect called Hydrocephalus (or 'water on the brain') and that's pretty much the only thing that's keeping the fluid in my head from putting so much pressure on my brain that I die. I had always tried to just kind of....pretend I didn't have it. I figured that after having the shunt in for a while...and going through the revision when I was in the 2nd grade....I wouldn't have to deal with it anymore.
It really bothers me that I can't remember hardly anything that happened though. I don't want to lose my memory. In my opinion, that's like one of the most precious things you could possibly have. And even though my family says it's probably better that I don't remember it...I can't help but still wish I did-regardless of how bad the situation was at the time. I mean, what if it happens again? And my family isn't around next time? If I'm not really 'there', then how am I going to get someone to help me?
I don't know-maybe I'm just being weird and irrational. But losing my memory and having things like that happen over the period I
can't remember is probably the scariest thing I've ever been through...and I REALLY don't want it to happen again.