All7OfUs
<font color=darkorchid>We too are so very NOT into
- Joined
- Dec 12, 2007
I am in bed. I simply flat out refuse to pick up my broom, do one single dish (still sitting on the counter from last nights dinner), put one article of clothing in that wash machine, or even have another cup of coffee today until Ive put pen to paper, so to speak, and re-connect with all of you- my beloved friends here on the DIS. You can never fathom how much Ive missed you and the regular escape of my virtual WDW world.
Let me start today by bringing you up to date and explaining what has been consuming my life for the last several months. It has not been pretty; I have some confessing and excuse-making to do. Indulge me if you will
As you all know, last September my daughter became interested in a young man whom she grew to care about very much. Yes, I think she was genuinely in love with him, and at first we truly loved him too and thought it would be a perfect match for her. Sparing you the juicy details, and all drama aside, over time it became very apparent that this young man is simply not ready for a serious relationship. He has been GREATLY hurt by his parents on many levels and it began to show itself in how he was living out a lot of aspects of their relationship. Bek decided that although it would (and to some degree has) break her heart, she needed to release him to let God do a work in him. She realized that with herself in the way David would never be able to go through a healing process or get some life experience under his belt in order to be equipped for any future relationships. She is not closing the door for something WAY down the road, but for now has asked to be released from any romantic bond they had. Short story is that it was a STORMY affair from the very first day. They increasingly argued more, and because she and I have a VERY, very close friendship, we spent many hours, almost daily, talking through things sometimes late into the night. Frankly, it consumed me emotionally and time-wise, and I just simply had nothing left in me to give- here or anywhere else.
But thats not all. Remember how I mentioned that his mother was a whackadoodle? Things went from bad to unbelievable in that arena between she and I. I admit I made some very big mistakes in how I pursued her friendship, but have you ever heard of a parent hacking their adult childs E-Mail and FB accounts and reading confidential conversations between himself and his girlfriends mom and all his other friends?? She became angry that I was even talking to him and for trying to get to know him and now hates my guts. Yup, its that bad. So, in addition to the whole shepherding Bek through a crappy relationship, Ive had to deal with trying to negotiate a reconciliation process with a crazy woman (because thats the right thing to do).
The whole package of my life with everything from trying to settle into a new house and community, getting kids into their various schools (2 into college this year- one of those into nursing school), going back to school myself, and dealing with all the interpersonal issues, has sent me into a rather nasty tailspin. Basically, Ive lost about 20 pounds (I started at 115, so thats pretty significant; Im a walking skeleton) and have taken to months of insomnia. Thankfully, and all credit goes to God, Im beginning to climb out of a pretty well-established routine of depression and life is taking on a more rosy outlook. I have been able to get all As in the 3 classes Ive taken so far, Bek is firmly planted in her LPN program, Mikki is also doing VERY well in school getting straight As in college classes (at 16), my other 2 kids are doing fairly well in their public schools ( a wholly new experience for us), my husband LOVES his job with the state forestry dept., Andrew (21 now!) is turning into a respectable soldier in his ROTC program at Western Kentucky University, Ive started eating and sleeping again (thank you Ambien), and I can truly say I am getting better. Some of you have been faithful to call me and know the story all too well. Thank you; I can never tell you how much I love and appreciate you and your prayers! Never, ever in my entire life have I had someone hate me at the level Davids mom does; sheesh, Ive really never had anyone even dislike me or at least tell me so anyway.
But I am here to testify to the healing power of releasing forgiveness. When I sent that letter telling her I was sorry for the hurts Ive caused her and that Ive forgiven her for the wrongs shes hurt me with, I was almost instantly at peace. So, this has nothing to do with Disney whatsoever, but I thought I should bring you up to date of where Ive been lately.
Now, onto writing that update
Let me start today by bringing you up to date and explaining what has been consuming my life for the last several months. It has not been pretty; I have some confessing and excuse-making to do. Indulge me if you will
As you all know, last September my daughter became interested in a young man whom she grew to care about very much. Yes, I think she was genuinely in love with him, and at first we truly loved him too and thought it would be a perfect match for her. Sparing you the juicy details, and all drama aside, over time it became very apparent that this young man is simply not ready for a serious relationship. He has been GREATLY hurt by his parents on many levels and it began to show itself in how he was living out a lot of aspects of their relationship. Bek decided that although it would (and to some degree has) break her heart, she needed to release him to let God do a work in him. She realized that with herself in the way David would never be able to go through a healing process or get some life experience under his belt in order to be equipped for any future relationships. She is not closing the door for something WAY down the road, but for now has asked to be released from any romantic bond they had. Short story is that it was a STORMY affair from the very first day. They increasingly argued more, and because she and I have a VERY, very close friendship, we spent many hours, almost daily, talking through things sometimes late into the night. Frankly, it consumed me emotionally and time-wise, and I just simply had nothing left in me to give- here or anywhere else.
But thats not all. Remember how I mentioned that his mother was a whackadoodle? Things went from bad to unbelievable in that arena between she and I. I admit I made some very big mistakes in how I pursued her friendship, but have you ever heard of a parent hacking their adult childs E-Mail and FB accounts and reading confidential conversations between himself and his girlfriends mom and all his other friends?? She became angry that I was even talking to him and for trying to get to know him and now hates my guts. Yup, its that bad. So, in addition to the whole shepherding Bek through a crappy relationship, Ive had to deal with trying to negotiate a reconciliation process with a crazy woman (because thats the right thing to do).
The whole package of my life with everything from trying to settle into a new house and community, getting kids into their various schools (2 into college this year- one of those into nursing school), going back to school myself, and dealing with all the interpersonal issues, has sent me into a rather nasty tailspin. Basically, Ive lost about 20 pounds (I started at 115, so thats pretty significant; Im a walking skeleton) and have taken to months of insomnia. Thankfully, and all credit goes to God, Im beginning to climb out of a pretty well-established routine of depression and life is taking on a more rosy outlook. I have been able to get all As in the 3 classes Ive taken so far, Bek is firmly planted in her LPN program, Mikki is also doing VERY well in school getting straight As in college classes (at 16), my other 2 kids are doing fairly well in their public schools ( a wholly new experience for us), my husband LOVES his job with the state forestry dept., Andrew (21 now!) is turning into a respectable soldier in his ROTC program at Western Kentucky University, Ive started eating and sleeping again (thank you Ambien), and I can truly say I am getting better. Some of you have been faithful to call me and know the story all too well. Thank you; I can never tell you how much I love and appreciate you and your prayers! Never, ever in my entire life have I had someone hate me at the level Davids mom does; sheesh, Ive really never had anyone even dislike me or at least tell me so anyway.
But I am here to testify to the healing power of releasing forgiveness. When I sent that letter telling her I was sorry for the hurts Ive caused her and that Ive forgiven her for the wrongs shes hurt me with, I was almost instantly at peace. So, this has nothing to do with Disney whatsoever, but I thought I should bring you up to date of where Ive been lately.
Now, onto writing that update
bumped for ya.
. What a three ring circus you've been through lately! Good grief. I've wondered how you were doing since I haven't seen you around on the boards for months now. I'm so sorry to hear all that you (and Bek) have been going through. What a shame that she had to put the brakes on their relationship but it certainly sounds as if it's for the best. You have a smart girl there I think!
I will bug again today. 
... I firmly believe that you are that person who is there for EVERYONE around you 
... and so you end up getting run into the ground when an overwhelming situation like this takes over your world!!
Of all the crazy things to think of knowing all that you were going through, but I knew the David thing had come to a sort of close and thought it would be good for you to get back here. GMTA I guess. 
