Hi Everyone, thanks for all your messgaes of support.
It's one month today since we lost Miles, and I have to say that it's getting worse for us everyday... I know that sometimes you have to hit the bottom before you can start to climb the hill again, but it feels as though we take at least 3 steps back everyday and somedays not even one forwards.
I have started to go into work for a few hours a day, I'm not rushing myself, it's just that the alternative is lying in bed all day crying. And I know I have to go back to a routine and it's not going to get easier because I put it off...
Hayley is sixteen next week, and thats going to be really tough for us. Miles chose a present for her, and had me bring home a card - but he never could bring himself to write it... think that might be a good thing in hindsight. She doesn't need a piece of cardboard to know how much he loved her - he showed her that every day. In the letter he left to be read out at his funeral he said this about her:
"Lovely Hayley, I am so sorry that I had to leave you, and so sad for all the things in your life I will miss. Thank you for being so strong for me while I was ill and for giving me your time so freely. You have always been such a joy and an inspiration to be around, and from the first moment I held you in my arms you captivated me. Your hapiness was always my number one priority, and always will be. Please know that even though you cannot see me, I will always be watching over you. You make me so proud every single day
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There will be so many hard times over the next few weeks... We'll keep trying our best though - minute by minute, day by day...
Disneyfairytale, thank you so much for your lovely message
Please continue to come on here and vent and build some friendships with the rest of us Disney fanatics. You are definitely someone I would love to get to know better and would be a priviledge to meet you in person on a Disney venture.
Who knows, maybe some day we will meet! In the meantime, I hope that we can build a great online friendship!
OK - my bad - strangely I assumed you were from the USA - but NO you are from the UK - 'The Shires' - like in the Hobbit?? Just kidding....disregard my Thanksgiving post. OK - stupid provincial question here - is there a UK equivalent to Thanksgiving??
Actually, yes, like in the Hobbit - Tolkein lived here for quite a while and it's where his 'lands' are based on! And no, we don't really have an equivalent to thanksgiving... Thanks for your suggestion about the online book club - it sounds like a great idea, but I have no idea how to organised something like that. Maybe you could give me some ideas?
Anyway, once again, thanks to you all for your continued support - I really do appreciate it all so very much...
Amanda xx