I am just now seeing this post, you lost your daughter the same year I lost mine. My daughter passed Dec 6th 2017. She was 35 yrs old. I am still trying to get over the grief of it. I can not imagine the unspeakable horror you must still be going though. Until you lose someone that you truly love, you will never understand the life changing grief you feel, and the way you lost your daughter was an incredible blow. There are no words I can say that will bring comfort, I wish they were, I would scream them from the roof top for you. My prayers are going to go up for you, only strength can come from above. I am sadden and sorrowful. One split second in time can change the life's of so many forever. We just can't make sense of it. My sister goes to a large church in Texas, and a very faithful and prominent family of the church a few months ago came home after Sunday school with their 18 year old son, all laughing, they all ate out after church, the son rejoicing at church, everything seemingly normal and he went out in the woods behind their house and hung himself that afternoon , with his older brother finding him hanging from a tree. Only you would understand how that family is now shattered. My goodness what that has done not only to the family but also affected the church family and as far away as where I live I am still shaken . The tears we have shed are enormous. All we can do is hold tight to one another, pray for one another and love one another. And know that my heart and prayers are going up for the strength of your whole family. God speed and huggss !!