becka
<font color=green>Proud Mommy of sweet Nathan and
- Joined
- Aug 17, 1999
Journal
I don't really know how I want to handle this journal. I don't really feel like putting what I eat down here because I keep a really good written food journal already. I guess for now I will just start with "my story".
It seems like I have always been a little bigger since I hit puberty. I was a relativelynormal weight as a child but I developed early and it seems like overnight I went from
wearing girls sizes to a 10/12. I hit a size 14 by junior high and by high school I was into a size 16-18. I hated being overweight but I never really did a lot about it and honestly I did not have a good support group for me at that time. I was in an Army family
and we were constantly moving (I went to 4 high schools in 4 years). It was very hard onme to keep moving around and losing friends. Every time I would move I would take to eating
after school because I had nothing else to do and I was depressed. It was just pure emotional eating because I missed my old friends and I was not feeling too sure about my
new school. You can see it in my school pictures because every year I would be up another 10-15 pounds.
In college I managed to briefly wear a size 14 again (after a bout with mono) but by the time I graduated and got married I was up to a size 18. After getting married it seemed to all go uphill from there. I passed by size 20 and 22 and ended up in 24's and they were starting to get tight. I was mortified. I already hated shopping in the plus sizes but it looked like I was outgrowing even stores like Lane Bryant. I didn't have a clue where I
was going to find clothes and I really did NOT want to buy clothes bigger than I was already in. DH and I had hopes of starting a family in about a year and a half to two years
and I knew that I wanted to be healthier when I did get pregnant. So I finally decided to do something about it.
I lost some weight in the spring of 2001 just by trying to watch what I was eating but in early June 2001 I decided to try Weight Watchers. I stayed with the plan (and was successful) until I was down to 232.5. I then became pregnant with DS unexpectedly and I had to go off WW. I gained a lot of weight during my pregnancy because of pre-eclampsia and right before I delivered I was back up to my high weight of 271. At 6 weeks post-partum I was at about 239 which was only about 7 pounds up from when I got pregnant. UnfortunatelyI did not get right back on WW (like I had promised myself when I got pregnant) and I gained quite a bit of weight over the next few months.
I started my current weight loss journey back on 3/31/03 at a starting weight of 269 pounds. That was only 2 pounds shy of my all time high back in January 2001. I knew I had been
gaining weight back but I had avoided the scale and I was really disgusted with the number I saw when I finally did get around the weighing myself. I was successful with WW and the
WISH group in the summer of 2001 so I decided to try it again. I had a few rough weeks at first but I am starting to feel successful again and I love that feeling. I am now almost one month back into my program and I am down 12.5 pounds to 256.5. I still have a LONG way to go but I really believe that I can do it this time.
My ulitmate goal is to wear a size 10/12 and I think that is realistic. I would like to at least get into size 12s and see where I want to go from there. I don't have an exact number
on the scale that I am looking for but I imagine it will be around 145-150 to get into those size 12s. I mostly just want to feel comfortable and to be able to walk into pretty much
any store and know that they will have my size and that I can find something that fits well.
So there is "my story" in a nutshell. I don't really have any exact plans for this journal but feel free to comment on anything. I will just post periodic updates and success/failure stories over the coming days, weeks and months.
I don't really know how I want to handle this journal. I don't really feel like putting what I eat down here because I keep a really good written food journal already. I guess for now I will just start with "my story".
It seems like I have always been a little bigger since I hit puberty. I was a relativelynormal weight as a child but I developed early and it seems like overnight I went from
wearing girls sizes to a 10/12. I hit a size 14 by junior high and by high school I was into a size 16-18. I hated being overweight but I never really did a lot about it and honestly I did not have a good support group for me at that time. I was in an Army family
and we were constantly moving (I went to 4 high schools in 4 years). It was very hard onme to keep moving around and losing friends. Every time I would move I would take to eating
after school because I had nothing else to do and I was depressed. It was just pure emotional eating because I missed my old friends and I was not feeling too sure about my
new school. You can see it in my school pictures because every year I would be up another 10-15 pounds.
In college I managed to briefly wear a size 14 again (after a bout with mono) but by the time I graduated and got married I was up to a size 18. After getting married it seemed to all go uphill from there. I passed by size 20 and 22 and ended up in 24's and they were starting to get tight. I was mortified. I already hated shopping in the plus sizes but it looked like I was outgrowing even stores like Lane Bryant. I didn't have a clue where I
was going to find clothes and I really did NOT want to buy clothes bigger than I was already in. DH and I had hopes of starting a family in about a year and a half to two years
and I knew that I wanted to be healthier when I did get pregnant. So I finally decided to do something about it.
I lost some weight in the spring of 2001 just by trying to watch what I was eating but in early June 2001 I decided to try Weight Watchers. I stayed with the plan (and was successful) until I was down to 232.5. I then became pregnant with DS unexpectedly and I had to go off WW. I gained a lot of weight during my pregnancy because of pre-eclampsia and right before I delivered I was back up to my high weight of 271. At 6 weeks post-partum I was at about 239 which was only about 7 pounds up from when I got pregnant. UnfortunatelyI did not get right back on WW (like I had promised myself when I got pregnant) and I gained quite a bit of weight over the next few months.
I started my current weight loss journey back on 3/31/03 at a starting weight of 269 pounds. That was only 2 pounds shy of my all time high back in January 2001. I knew I had been
gaining weight back but I had avoided the scale and I was really disgusted with the number I saw when I finally did get around the weighing myself. I was successful with WW and the
WISH group in the summer of 2001 so I decided to try it again. I had a few rough weeks at first but I am starting to feel successful again and I love that feeling. I am now almost one month back into my program and I am down 12.5 pounds to 256.5. I still have a LONG way to go but I really believe that I can do it this time.
My ulitmate goal is to wear a size 10/12 and I think that is realistic. I would like to at least get into size 12s and see where I want to go from there. I don't have an exact number
on the scale that I am looking for but I imagine it will be around 145-150 to get into those size 12s. I mostly just want to feel comfortable and to be able to walk into pretty much
any store and know that they will have my size and that I can find something that fits well.
So there is "my story" in a nutshell. I don't really have any exact plans for this journal but feel free to comment on anything. I will just post periodic updates and success/failure stories over the coming days, weeks and months.