I am feeling the same way. My first solo trip is in 32 days
. I am a stay at home mom (2 kids, 2 dogs, hubby and a pt job in reatail) who doesn't get a moments peace to myself at any point in any day, and I am waiting on someone all day long. So I decided that for my 40th bday gift I wanted to go to celebrate it in Disney...which is my happy place
. I couldn't find a friend or babysitter to take my hubby so I am going solo.
I am feeling very scared about flying alone (god forbid should anything happen) and also scared about leaving the little ones home alone with daddy. Daddy will take great care of them, I just feel guilty that I am going to be enjoying myself without them (we are going as a family in July and they have been there before). I am trying to talk myself out of the guilt as I do nothing for myself (the mom sacrafice) and I deserve the break!!!
I keep thinking of all the shops, shows and pictures I can take without crying, crabbing and asking to go. I also am very excited about the prospect of a meal being warm when I get to eat it...and I can stay seated throughout the entire meal!
So as scared as I am about leaving my family, I know once i get to my resort, I will be ok...then when I get through the gate and see the castle I will be crying tears of joy!!!
good luck and you can do it....new adventures are always a great thing!