I am struggling..medical issue. Surgery over pg. 3

[lovemygoofy]

I'm sorry to be dumping here. I just need it out of my brain and heart.

I'm struggling trying to stay positive and resilient. Frankly, I'm feeling heart broken and scared. I have been pretty sick for almost a year and have tried off and on to pursue what the heck was going on but would be told everything is okay and I'd go about my day thinking just must be me.

Finally I hit a wall of pain and sickness and exhaustion and I spoke up at my annual women's exam. She took some blood word and was quite surprised to see I had enough estrogen flowing for two ovaries, which is surprising when I have none. Off to get a CT scan done and I have large pelvic mass growing and likely more endometriosis growing as result of the free flowing estrogen from the mass. I am just a hot mess of emotion right now. This will be the 5th surgery in 4 years for all this mess. I wake up every time from surgery in tears wanting it to be the last time and being told it would be the last time. It never is. And now we have big fear the mass is likely more than just weird leftover ovary but possibly developing into more. Just lot to process and trying to say oh it's fine. It's always fine, right...

Maybe send up prayer or good thoughts. We can use it.

 

[Someone28624]

I'm so sorry to hear this. Praying your surgery goes smoothly and you can put this behind you soon!

 

[wgeo]

Sorry that you are going through this - I would say that being an emotional mess it almost to be expected at this point. Sounds like you've been through a lot. I hope the surgery is sooner than later so you can put this step behind you on this journey.

 

[AgentMama]

I'm so sorry you're going through this. It's so hard when you know something isn't right but have a hard time getting medical professionals to hear what you're saying. I hope they're able to remove all of the mass and tissue that's causing you issues. Good luck and I'll send healing thoughts your way.

 

[OKW8297]

Tina, I’m so sorry. You have certainly had more than your share.

 

[BlueStarryHat]

I suffered from Endometriosis for years before I was even diagnosed...I too had several surgeries to laser off adhesions and scar tissue. I had a large mass growing from my ovary that turned out to be a "chocolate" cyst. Called "chocolate" because it's full of dried blood. So, I *won't* tell you not to worry because of course you will, but Endo (as you know) does messed-up stuff to your insides. Vent anytime here, we are listening.

 

[Kellydelly]

Knowing there is something to fix is stressful but at least you have answers now to what was going on. I hope that you have more peace than fear as your doctor fixes the issue! There's only so many parts in there, make sure they get them all this time . You will feel so much better when they straighten this out for you! Take care

 

[Kitty 34]

So sorry. Hang in there; hopefully all will get better.

 

[WebmasterKathy]

Oh, Tina! I’m so sorry about the pain and the worry.

 

[lynxstch]

Dear Tina..so sorry to hear about this. Sending you prayers and lots of pixie dust to get over this latest health scare. Now that you have some answers about what the issues are, lets hope they can find a way to take care of it and get you back on the road to good health. Do not apologize for dumping on your DIS family. That's what we are here for. I hadn't seen you on here in quite awhile, and was hoping that you were doing better. Take care, and please keep us updated. ---Lynn

 

[lovemygoofy]

Thank you, all. Realistically I think everything will be okay. Just lot worry for surgery this coming week.

 

[Aimeedyan]

I am so sorry Tina.

 

[Pea-n-Me]

Hugs, Tina. Keeping you in my prayers.

 

[figment52]

So sorry to hear this Tina. sending prayers and pixie dust for you.

 

[luvmarypoppins]

Sending you lots of prayers and hugs Tina.
Vent any time. We are here for you.
So sorry you have to go through this again.

 

[mom2rtk]

I'm so sorry! Prayers for a swift and complete recovery.

 

[Micca]

I'm so sorry! Best wishes for a successful surgery and speedy recovery.

 

[kimblebee]

I’m sorry to read you’re going through this.

just today I posted a thread about ovarian cysts and it made me wonder how you were doing. I second what a pp said, it isn’t a great answer, but at least now you have one. Good thoughts coming your way.

 

[Wishing on a star]

Ohhhh, I am SO sorry!!!!
My thoughts and prayers are definitely with you!
I struggle with some chronic health things too.
I know it can be excruciating.

I hope you find answers and wellness and peace!

 

[Dan Murphy]

Tina, I know it is so darn cliched, but really, my prayers and good thoughts follow you. Along with your stalwart Matthew there, you will prevail. Just you watch. 's